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tell me! the story behind this song

Dec. 31st, 2008 | 02:12 am

how do youuuuuu
stay in tune
in the icy air?

how do youuuuuu
clear a room
when there's nobody there?

i've got mold on my windows
and a hole in my shoe.
i've been waitin half my life
for a little fish like you.

swimmin in my brain,
you make me insane,
you really are a pain
in the brain.

paddlin through my heart.
fish, don't even start.
where's the last pop tart?
oh. you ate it.


i always use words that kind of just happen when i'm writing a new song.
kind of like "every morning when i wake up blah blah blah" filler words.
but i kind of like these!

is this telling any kind of story?
and if so, what?
is it a happy song? sad song?
i mean i have an idea about where i want it to go but i want to hear what these words sound like to other people first!

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i always write in kimchiclaire but

Nov. 10th, 2008 | 11:26 am

 are you ever not still in love with someone you have loved?
i thought one love squeezed out the other in that little heartspace,
but it seems to be a more expansive land than i had believed.
is it possible that if you truly love someone, you always will?
i feel pretty young and naive on this matter.
what does love mean to you?
when do you say "i love you"?
do you think if you hold on to old loves, you can ever love someone else fully?
or is there space enough for a whole crew of old and current lovers? 
i've dated seven people? and loved two? is that possible!?!?
it seems like too many. 
does it cheapen love to love too many?
maybe there's space for a lot of loves but only one or two of those ultimate i-would-die-for-you kinds of loves.
it oddly warms me to feel love for TWO  ex-boyfriends.
i don't feel very sad or sorry for myself, it gives me hope, a sense of calm, and makes me feel less lonely...
but i do feel a little crazy for being still in love with two people from the past.
and who knows if i will keep loving the most recent one - that split was quite recent.
friends are trying to set me up, but i think i should take myself off the market -
i don't want anything shallow, but i also can't afford to add another ex-love to the roster for awhile before my heart gets stronger again.
who am i kidding - i always want love! even when i know i'm not ready! 

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i got cool korean stationary

Jul. 14th, 2008 | 02:46 am

send me a letter
(with return address)
and i will send you one back.

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unduly upset

Jul. 10th, 2008 | 01:31 pm

fuck little bitches on the internet!!

fuck those fucking little bitchy bitchezzzzz.

someone posted something on the community called blackcigarette
about how vogue did a "black issue"
and everyone was like "omggggg so racist!!!"
to which i would generally agree
but then this girl posted like,
"i dunno, i'm black, and i really like this!
there are never any good black fashion magazines,
it's nice that they're saying "BLACK IS BEAUTIFUL! SEE? LOOK"
in a big way"

so I responded somethin like:
aw, man thanks,
you really changed my mind
blah blah
talking about my sociology degree and how i'm supposed to say what's offensive for other people
but that doesnt seem right
and even when i just didn't see any other bespectacled kids in magazines
it made me feel like shit
and those were just GLASSES etc etc
props to you, girl

and then this little BITCH wrote:

fuck you fuck you fuck you
it's none of your fucking business,
you lil bitchy bitch

and to make it worse, the girl i commented on didn't respond
she probably thought it was awkward:(
but it was really genuine!

maybe i AM awkward, but who the fuck gets off on posting some shit like that!!

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this is what annes taught me about south korea

Jul. 10th, 2008 | 02:30 am



it's a park about sex on a hawaii-like island off the south of korea.

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my travel blog!

Jul. 9th, 2008 | 04:51 pm


i plan on updating regularly! i might not post in lj much anymore... but i will still read yours!

my skype name is theclairewhite and it would be nice to talk to you when i'm in korealand!

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Jul. 7th, 2008 | 12:15 am


i will be sleeping in my korean apartment in ONE WEEK!!!

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Jul. 1st, 2008 | 05:39 pm

got my visa!
got my visa
visa timessss
visa timesssss!!!


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radio hits!

Jul. 1st, 2008 | 12:16 am

so, guys! guys!
i'm really digging this new coldplay(!) track, "violet hill," off of viva la vida...
this album was produced by brian eno
and musically it just feels really good -
poppy but slightly complex and surprising?
plus chris martin has the bona fied voice of an angel!
but i also like that it's more about the band with this album and less about martin's pretty face
(which i mean i don't really mind or anything!)

another break-out summa time hit that i've been hearing on DC 101 a lot and am IN LOVE with:

i really like flobots, does any else know anything about them?

also: i saw wall-e and i thought it was dumbdumb
but my friends liked it,
but then again they're dumbdumb too

my interview at the korean embassy is tomorrow, i'm skeered!

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